I came across the reading below online this morning as I wait for my ride. It is appropriate for me today, really everyday, but particularly this morning. Today is an extremely exciting day for me, yet H has a knack for letting me down. Or in more honestly, that is just my expectations letting me down. H is just being who he knows to be. Dealing with his "stuff" on his own terms in his own ways. I am becoming more and more ok with that. That steady eerie peace of acceptance. I am grateful for the calmness, but it also brings a layer of new sadness. However, on the flip side with that sadness is also a layer of relief which releases that judgment, criticism or condemnation towards H of not being what I felt I needed him to be or want him to be. I am getting there, one step at a time.
I do my best to have compassion for others, even when I am on my last nerve. I think about my character defects and how difficult it has been for me to give some of them up to my HP. Who am I to judge others? Hope you are doing well. Sorry to have been so long in commenting here.
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