Waiting

Today was a bizarre day... that type of bizarre that zaps your energy and you continue to shake your head that you can't believe that just happened!

I just don't have a lot to share today. But as I was sitting tonight after dinner, I looked up the word waiting in the back of the Courage to Change to see what type of readings were available. Why waiting? I'm waiting for some news that I hope will come this week.

The October 7th reading is the one I opened up and read. It was exactly what I needed to read before I head off to bed.

I felt my life was on hold. I wanted change; I expected it; I even tried to make it happen. But it was not within my power to make any of the changes I wanted. I was frustrated. I'm an action-taker, so I feel better when I am busy and industrious. There is a time to act. But in Al-Anon I learned that there is also a time to not act - to stop and wait. As my Sponsor puts it, "Don't just do something, sit there."

How often I still find myself impatient with the pace of life. But today, when things don't happen according to my schedule, I can accept that there may be a reason, and I can learn to adjust to what is. I may be experiencing great change on the inside even though I see little evidence on the outside. I can keep in mind that waiting time doesn't have to mean wasted time. Even times of stillness have lessons to teach me.

Today's reminder: The invitation to live life fully is offered to me each day. I can accept the pace of change today, knowing it will bring both times of active involvement and periods of quiet waiting. I will let the surprises of the day open up before me.

"Besides the noble art of getting things done; there is the noble art of leaving things undone. The wisdom of life consists in the elimination of nonessentials." Lin Yutang

More will be revealed. I have to constantly remind myself, like the reading states, "... waiting time doesn't have to mean wasted time." I hope you have a pleasant evening and take advantage of that invitation to live life to it's fullest!